Wednesday, March 7, 2012


Today Jonah saw a big tomato and said, "Just like Jackies!"

He is recalling the two years he spent on the Hendrickson's farm 50 hours a week (and then some) while Jason and I worked. Every time he mentions Jackie, I cry. I cry because I miss her and her family, but mostly I cry because they were the best thing (next to his little bro being born) that ever happened to Jonah in his short life. I wrote this post before we left, but forgot to post it in the flurry of moving. So here it is:

I supposed every move is fraught with emotions. This one seems so much different than the last. Leaving my friends and family behind in Michigan was very difficult, yet I knew that it was my time to move on and start a new chapter in our lives. Now, I’m making this decision not only for myself, but also for Jonah. He is leaving behind the only world he’s ever known, which makes me terribly sad. I realize that he may never remember the first two years of his life here, but does that make it easier or harder? Easier for him. Harder for me. I have shed so many tears thinking of how I am ripping him from his surrogate extended family, the Hendricksons, with the intention of bringing him closer to his biological extended families the Meslins and the Malotkes. I am not questioning the decision, but I just can’t quite come to grips with it. I never imagined that we could be so blessed as to find a family to watch over Jonah while Jason and I worked. Not just one person, but a group of the kindest, most loving and affectionate people that I could ever want my child to encounter. Jackie, Wade, Brooke, Leigh, Colby, Blair and Teo have raised my son for the past two years – spending 8-10 hours a day, 5 days a week nurturing him and helping mold him into the amazing little man that he is. How do you repay someone for that? And how do you say good bye?

Saying good-bye to them was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I cried so hard when we drove down that long gravel driveway for the very last time. I get to see them on facebook all the time and hopefully we'll skype soon. We miss you all!

Chloe, Blair, Jonah & Cody (taken on 7/29/11)

Friday, March 2, 2012

4 weeks down, 11 more to go!

I can't believe it has already been 1 month since I began my personal crusade to eliminate the fat in my body!

To re-cap: my ultimate goal is to lose 25 lbs by Cathy's wedding (May 12th). I was originally hoping for April 1st (2 months), which I realize now, was a teensy-weensy bit ridiculous. So, I am re-assessing my goal and I think it is manageable, IF I stay on the track that I am on now!

I have lost a total of 7.5 lbs - give or take 1 lb because I don't have a digital scale and I'm realizing how hard it is to read those little marks for 5' 9" away.

If I pick up the pace, the next 17.5 lbs should just melt away. I need to average 1.5 lbs per week, so here is my plan: Instead of 20 minutes of Jillian everyday, I am going to try for 40-60 minutes 4x per week (I have a couple more work-out DVDs to change things up a bit). I typically do work-out during the kids' nap time - they both take one nap that coincides and provide me with AT LEAST 1 hour of 'free time' (to get approximately 5,000,000 things done). The opposing days I'll be working on my thesis (which is an entirely different blog post, upcoming).

I've also gotten even more serious about my eating - new favorite snacks: 1/4 cup of pineapple tidbits with 1/2 cup cottage cheese, hard-boiled eggs (whites only) and I'm still digging my carrots and hummus, and just made a new batch of low-fat homemade granola to put on my Greek yogurt in the morning, or just nibble on. I am trying to kick the coffee-creamer habit (70+ calories for 2 Tbsp in 1 cup of coffee, is just ludicrous.)

Oh, I almost forgot! For all you milk drinkers out there, which I am, skim milk has 90 calories in 1 cup. That means that if you pour a full-size glass at dinner, that can be upwards of 150-200 calories, and if you refill (which I've been known to do) you are talk about 1/2 of your caloric intake for dinner!!! I know I need my calcium - but I can't afford calories like that! So, I've been using a juice glass and filling that up (about 1 cup) and NO REFILLS at dinner. I'll just take a supplement, if need be.

My other new trick is eating a peppermint candy after dinner. It is a sweet little treat, and it freshens breath, but it also has the same effect as brushing you teeth: everything tastes funny after you eat it. When that doesn't work, I just eat a hand full of m&ms....

Last, but not least, I noticed the advertisements for Silk Almond milk and they keep comparing how much calcium it has compared to cow's milk. Depending on which version you buy it also has only 1 gram of protein, whereas skim milk has 8 grams!